Well... who knows whats going to happen???

Well ... here we are again. Still yet no news as to what is going on. There are several possibilites 1) He stays with his current unit and most likely won't deploy (but of course you never know) 2) he get put with 1 of 2 other units which will deploy in Feb. (that would be awful...right after the baby is born) or 3) he goes to the other of the two units in which case it looks like we'd be pcs'd out (we'd be relocated to another base, another unit.. and most likely deploy) So anyway... who knows whats really going to happen. That's all I know for now. In the meantime we are trying to spend lots of time with our little man :) and starting to really get ready for the new addition :) Love you all!

normal days?

Well, since the day (last wed.) there has been no new news. As a result it's kind of like everything is just normal. Every day he goes to work and comes home...the only real hard times are in the middle of the night when my brain doesn't want to stop thinking about it. It's like all day I don't really think at all about him being gone for a year...then at night the worry and fear set in. They say that all 27 will be joining the company already over there so i guess we'll see. Sometimes I want him to just go already b/c all this waiting and not knowing what's going on is driving me crazy. Plus I think I'd rather be pregnant and have him gone than have him deploy after the baby comes and he misses the first year. I'd rather me do with out him than the baby. OMG, there is just so many scenarios that are going through my head... i just wish the scary ones would stay away! In the meantime we are doing lots of fun things together as a family. Henry is soaking up all the time he can with his daddy. As soon as I know anything i'll let you all know, until then keep us in your thoughts and prayers!

ok, Well it's 12:40am on Wed. July 14th. I'm finding it really hard to sleep tonight. The brain just won't shut down for a bit. I'm almost 13 weeks pregnant so the extra hormones rushing through my system is a bit much to handel as well. You'll have to forgive my spelling...i'm not even sure why i'm worried about that. Anyway... the past couple months have been a bit of a roller coaster with this diployment thing, he's going, then they don't know what or when, then it's on again. Long story short, his unit is allready over there. They went while he was still in processing to the fort so he wasn't able to go at that time. Today, well yesterday, he finally was called to a meeting for information about this deployment. Basically they are all going to be going... it just got to the point in my head that it wouldn't really happen. I mean, a month ago i was so ready for this and new i'd be ok and able to handle it but then "it" never came so I just got use to the him being here all over again. Now however it's back to being real. I feel like my heart is breaking even though that dosen't make since in my head. I'm sitting here and it's hard to even type but i don't know...i need to get things out. It's really going to happen. God, I just hope you stay with him so he can come back home to me, henry and baby to be safe and sound! I can't picture a life w/o you in it. I'm scared, nervous and so many more emotions that i just don't know how to put into words. How to say what i'm feeling right now... i just don't know. I know i'm not the first to go through this, nor the last, unless peace really is accomplished on earth. I'm so very proud of my husband! He's so amazing, one reason why i feel selfish and don't want to share him. wow... so that's it for now at this moment. Please keep him and us in your thoughts and prayers, for strength to help us through all this. Thank you