ok, Well it's 12:40am on Wed. July 14th. I'm finding it really hard to sleep tonight. The brain just won't shut down for a bit. I'm almost 13 weeks pregnant so the extra hormones rushing through my system is a bit much to handel as well. You'll have to forgive my spelling...i'm not even sure why i'm worried about that. Anyway... the past couple months have been a bit of a roller coaster with this diployment thing, he's going, then they don't know what or when, then it's on again. Long story short, his unit is allready over there. They went while he was still in processing to the fort so he wasn't able to go at that time. Today, well yesterday, he finally was called to a meeting for information about this deployment. Basically they are all going to be going... it just got to the point in my head that it wouldn't really happen. I mean, a month ago i was so ready for this and new i'd be ok and able to handle it but then "it" never came so I just got use to the him being here all over again. Now however it's back to being real. I feel like my heart is breaking even though that dosen't make since in my head. I'm sitting here and it's hard to even type but i don't know...i need to get things out. It's really going to happen. God, I just hope you stay with him so he can come back home to me, henry and baby to be safe and sound! I can't picture a life w/o you in it. I'm scared, nervous and so many more emotions that i just don't know how to put into words. How to say what i'm feeling right now... i just don't know. I know i'm not the first to go through this, nor the last, unless peace really is accomplished on earth. I'm so very proud of my husband! He's so amazing, one reason why i feel selfish and don't want to share him. wow... so that's it for now at this moment. Please keep him and us in your thoughts and prayers, for strength to help us through all this. Thank you